The Power Within

Friendship- Your inner power is
Friendship! Your friends mean everything to
you, as you do to them. You are generally a
happy, laid back person who anyone can
approach. You love more than anything to make
new friends and hang out with your old ones.
Everyone generally loves you for being such an
awesome, cheerful person. You have heaps of
close friends, and can think of nothing better
to chat on the phone for hours with them, or
hang out with them whenever you can. Youd die
to protect your friends from harm, and are
always there for them, no matter what. Life for
you is just a breeze, with the friends you
have, life is all but perfect. And if you are
ever brought down, like youd do for them, your
friends would just pick you right back up
again, and be there for you no matter what. You
have a positive outlook on life, and people
love to be around you because of your joyful,
bouncy nature. You probably love a good joke
and tease your friends until they are bright
red, but they love you all the same. Good on
you for being so positive! With your attitude,
and all your friends, life for you were usually
be great!
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet:
The guy/girl who feels like the best friend in
the world. The two of you would be able to talk
about anything together. He/She would probably
be your friend first before you fell for them.
Your stone/jewel: Emerald
Your power: Friendship. The ability to
make friends with anyone, and to soothe old
rivalry so that peace and friendship upholds.
Your element: Water
A quote that applies to you: Everyone
hears what you say. Friends listen to what you
say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.


What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results)
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Top of the Head

What's the first thing that comes to mind?
1. [ RED ]: ferrari
2. [ BLUE ]: eagle
3. [ YELLOW ]: ribbon
4. [ GREEN ]: grass
5. [ PINK ]: elephant
6. [ WHITE ]:Christmas
7. [ BROWN ]: earth
8. [ BLACK ]: shoes
9. [ PURPLE ]: glasses
10. [ CRAZY ]: sexy cool
11. [ DICTIONARY ]: words
12. [ CALENDAR ]: dates
13. [ BED ]: wanna crawl back into
14. [ TV ]: infotainment
15. [ CAT ]: ken
16. [ HANDPHONE ]: nokia
17. [ LOVE ]: everywhere
18. [ EYES ]: twinkle
19. [ WATER ]: drink
20. [ EXAM ]: pakingshit!
21. [ FISH ]: nemo!
22. [ TOMATO ]: olive oil, french bread and some salt
23. [ SHAMPOO ]: palmolive
24. [ BURGER KING ]: unlimited apple juice!
25. [ McDONALDS ]: sundae!
26. [ KFC ]: QP bebe!
27. [ TEA ]: chamomile with spearmint
28. [ SOUP ]: thick and creamy for me!
29. [ CAR ]: black
30. [ FRUIT ]: mango
31. [ POWER PUFF GIRLS ]: mojo jojo!hehe
32. [ NESCAFE ]: coffeemate na to!
33. [ AVRIL LAVIGNE ]: im with you!
35. [ SUPERSTAR ]: sharon cuneta. hahaha!!!
36. [ BURN ]: tina arena
37. [ FLOWER ]: blue rose/lily of the valley
38. [ TATTOO ]: henna
39. [ HOLIDAY ]: christmas!!!!!
40. [ BYE ]: mei yo!
41. [ DREAM GAL ]: jeniffer gardner (did I get her name right?)
42. [ DREAM GUY ]: still in my dreams
43. [ SURVEY ]: questions
44. [ NAIL POLISH ]: pangit
45. [ FRIENDSTER/MYSPACE ]: connect
46. [NUT ]: ice age
47. [ BALLPEN ]: pilot
48. [ GOD ]: God.
49. [ PICTURES]: photogenic
50. [ CHICKEN ]: fried
51. [ CHOCOLATE ]: Crunch!
52. [ YM/AIM ]: chat
53. [ STARBUCKS ]: mocha frappe!
54. [ POWDER ]: J&J
55. [ TIME ]: magazine
56. [ MOUSE ]: mickey
57. [ HEAVEN ]: cloudy
59. [ JUICE ]: orange
60. [ PERFUME]: DKNY
61. [SOAP]: bubbly
62. [LOTION]: armani mania baby!
63. [CAMPING]: the great wild outdoors
64. [COMPUTER]: id like a new one
65. [CHAIR]: exucutive chair
66. [CLUB]: 50 cent
67. [ROASTED PIG]: crispylicious!
68. [BAG]: backpack
69. [SHOES]: rubber shoes
70. [T-SHIRTS]: GAP
72. [PJs]: silk
73. [CLOSET]: clothes
74. [COLLEGE ] ateneo
75. [ESSAYS]: college requirement
76. [BOOKS]: i love!
77. [RING ]:LOTR
78. [CDs]: round
79. [WEBSITE]: PNT
80. [REFRIGERATOR]: storage
81. [CALCULATOR]: numbers
82. [WONDERWOMAN]: superman
83. [SINGER]:i can be one
84. [BROADWAY]: plays, plays, plays
85. [POOL]: i want to swim in one of my own.
86. [BUS]: Stop
87. [DUNKIN DONUTS]: honey dipped, choco honey dipped and munchkins!
88. [BASKIN N\' ROBINS]: ice cream
89. [TAKE OUT]: chinese
90. [MALL]: stores
91. [NEW YORK]: never sleeps
92. [BELT]: pants
93. [DEODORANT]: sticky
94. [GEL]: hair
95. [BEVERAGE]: cola
96. [NOODLES]: pancit
97. [CHIPS]: lay's
98. [WINTER]: snow
99. [SUMMER]: sun, sand and sea!
100. [YOURSELF]: extraordinary

Tuwing Umulan

Remember the days that you looked forward to having a rainstorm so that you can go out and play in the rain? Well, today it isn't that day! It would have been if only (not in any particular order, mind you):

• I wasn't sick with colds accentuated with runny nose coupled with a sore and itchy throat! (Oh no! Naulanan naman ako! My sickness started from getting caught in a drizzle. Seems like I can kiss my get-well-now wish goodbye! Maybe I can just stack up on Vit. C and lots and lots of calamansi juice...actually had like 3 tall glasses to relieve my clogged nose...*ano koneksyon ng pag-inom ng calamansi juice sa pag-relieve ng clogged nose ko noh?! hmmm...di ko rin alam e! Basta! What I know is that I did feel relieved afterwards May be its a psychological thingy....hmmm...maybe!)
• I didn't have to go to school! (I could have really chosen not (only had a one hour class to attend) to but I'm rebounding from my delinquenteng estudyante week last week so I felt guilty...and a lil bit scared cause I just might *you never really know with this professor of mine* get called for recitation. He doesnt respect cuts and I didnt feel like risking it.)
• I didn't have spruced myself up so I don't look too sickly coming to school! (Thank GOD the mascara that I was wearing was waterproof! Otherwise, I'd be looking like Marilyn Manson!)
• I wasn't wearing my "golden" flat sandals! (Yes, they are golden, complete with an equally golden detail provided by beads. They are really lovely sandals that my aunt bought for me when she went to Bangkok. It has a strap that holds the big toe and leaves the rest of the other toes free. From that strap, there' s this thin golden thread linking it to the bigger strap that holds the middle of the foot down. I hope those brackish water at Baclaran didnt ruin my golden sandals! *looks down at my sandals* Hmm...they dont look like they're going to fall off any moment so, they're still safe...)
• I wasn't commuting going to school! (And to think I could have used the car cause Ahia wasnt using it today cause its his day-off!*grumble*mumble*grumble*)
• I didnt have to go down at the overpass in Baclaran that had ankle-deep waters (ewww!my feet! my flats! the dirty what-nots in those bracken waters!!! EWWW!!!)

The only good thing about this day so far is that:

• It has stopped raining (I'm a bit torn about this cause it stopped raining after I was already semi-wet and right after I was able to get a rid on a bus).
• I wasn't called for recitation (Again, torn about this. If this is really good. I mean, I could have not gone through all that bruhahaha with the rainstorm and would have probably increased the chances of me getting better sooner if I hadn't gone to class in the first place).
• I can watch Sweet 18 when I get home (Now, this is really the highlight of my day so far).

Speaking of home, I guess I've gotta head on home. Hao Jun and Zhu Shen are waiting for me!

Achoo!

Dang I'm sick! (Yes! I AM! So don't you go telling me 'Then why are you blogging?') I'm not sick with the I-cant-get-out-of-bed kinda thing. I'm sick with the I'm-lazy-to-get-out-bed kinda thing. I have colds coupled with a very itchy and sore throat that's punctuated with fits of incessant sneezing!

Ugh!

*quickly pulls out a tissue* Achoo!

I'm sick!

=(

I really hope I get better soon. I don't like being sick. Its crappy! And honestly, quite embarrassing. Imagine you sniffling and blowing loudly in a room of 40 + people breaking the "silence" that usually descends upon the room because someone is reciting. Totally unglamorous! Plus the fact that I cant miss any of my classes since its just a week before finals! Oh! Finals! So much backlog! *drowning*drowning*drowning*drowning*

I REALLY have to get well soon!

Can it be now? *sounding desperate*

Oh la la

Wallace Huo, one of my chinkinky "obessions" *winkz*







Speaking of my chinkinky "obessions", I'm sorely missing watching subtitled series or films... =( Anybody willing to lend me some good foreign films or series?

Holy Kettle Corn!!!

What's so holy about Holy Kettle Corn?

For starters, its non-greasy! Okay, not really that non-greasy but its less greasy than your usual Tatters or those microwavable ones. Second, its kettle popped! No! Not the kettle that you use for stove top water heating but as in the pan type or in the venacular, kawali or kawa (because of the size). They use no oil or butter, hence non-greasy or make that no added extra grease, leaving you with just the corn's natural grease. This then translates to less cholesterol or as their packaging proclaims no cholesterol (yippieee! the go signal for most of us to INDULGE in our pop corn cravings!). Third, it has this unique sweet-salty taste that just makes your hand automatically reach in the bag for more. Fourth, its reasonably priced. A small bag (around the size of the big bag of Chippy) of HKC will cut you back 25 bucks while the big bag (around 3/4 the size of a big Lay's) will cut you back 60. The small bag will do for those who arent really into popcorns but trust me, you'll probably buy yourself another bag once your through with your first one so I suggest you buy the big one so you wont be left hanging. They are REALLY that good!!!

The only drawback with HKC is that they have only a few kiosks strewn across the city. The ones that I know of are located in ATC (near Breadtalk), Metropolis (not really sure but a cousin of mine said they have one there), Glorietta (activity center), Forbes' Shell Station, Starmall (Shaw Blvd, not really sure on this one, a friend just told me) and one somewhere along Pearl Drive in Ortigas. And for someone like me who is isolated (lolz) in Rockwell, it poses a problem if I suddenly have the urge (which much to my chagrin happens every now and then) to have some HKC. *sigh* I hope they put one up in the Plant so that HKC can just be a few walks away...

In A Glass

You're a tequila sunrise, tequila, orange juice and a grenadine sunrise. One of the most popular cocktails your friends mean the world to you and you're always eager to entertain them.


""Which cocktail are you?""
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Yey!
Lickin'
Shootin'
and
Suckin'
Tequila!!!
*nevermind that there's sunrise appended to it...its still TEQUILA!*
*bwehehehehe! napaghahalata ang tendency na maging isang tomador!*

Artsie Pansy

I just love the description!

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Vampriella

I know! I know! Its another quizzy but its really interesting. Never thought that I could be one...never did really care for hemoglobin and all that stuff! I mean ewwww!!! But I do like the biting...make that nibbling...part of being a vamp--ire! *lolz*


You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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What Do You Do?

What do you do when two of your good friends who also happen to be a couple have a fight and both comes to you for some advice?

I'm in that bind right now. The guy has admitted that it is his fault but since he is as much as a good friend of mine as the girl, I can't help but give him the benefit of the doubt. I know him. His reputation precedes his true character and that I say is the reason why he gets into these kinds of trouble in the first place. It doesn't help either that their relationship is hidden from the world. To the rest of mankind, they are both single, willing and available when in truth, they are already man and wife.

Complicated.

Very complicated.

I feel for both of them. I actually just cried a while ago when I read his last message on his progress (on his none progress in fact) on winning my sister back (I call her sister cause we practically are). She still doesn't want to talk to him. I cried because I understand where both are standing and coming from. I cried because I feel angry and frustrated that this has to happen to them. They've already been through so much.

*sigh*

The only advice I gave my guy friend is to wait. Wait until the time she is ready to face him again. Wait until the wounds have had the chance to heal. And he gladly said that he would. Even if it takes forever. I know he can. He has waited for her for four years he embarked on their relationship with her. I'm confident that he will wait his lifetime for her. Just for her. Because there is really no him without her.

And for the girl, I told her this when she said she wasn't sure that she could give him the chance to explain..."I understand completely. All I'm asking is that you hear him out. You can decide better when you're fully informed. A picture can say a thousand words and it just might happen that you are reading wrong ones. It is in silence that the deepest feeling are heard. But silence gives way to many unbidden thoughts to surface and haunt you. Hear the silence not the fears. Find the right words in thousands that the picture holds. That is all that I ask."

As for my ender, I told them both that they can see each other perfectly only when they perfectly see their imperfections.

I love you P & T!
Very much so!

Quizzes, quizzes, quizzes

As you may have noticed, I've been taking these net quizzes left and right. You may ask why? Well, for starters, they are fun. How can it not be fun when you get to become a mysterious kisser, halo-halo, and a sky angel all in one day? I've always liked doing make-believe and would have wanted to be an actor if I just werent shy. *blush* Second, they are uncannily on target. A bit off center but STILL certainly on target. *saucer eyes* Does that mean I'm generic that I can just "fit" into a random net quiz? *pout* And to think I hate being put in a box! Third, they relieve me of my boredom. You can tell that Im pretty bored today. *lolz* Fourth, they are insightful. Just by answering a few RANDOM question, the quiz can tell you so much. Imah-g-ine that! *try saying that with a southern drawl for effect* Fifth, they've got nice graphics. Well, let's exclude the halo-halo picture okay?

Kaya, next time na ika'y nalulungkot, walang magawa at walang maka-usap, mga net quizzes ka na! *lolz*

Tian Shi, I am.

Take the quiz: "What Angel Are You?"

Sky Angel

You are the Sky Angel.You are calm, peaceful and serene.It can take an eternity to make you angry, but you can be very destructive on a whim.You can be slow to make friends, but you will stick by somone through thick and thin, and won't betray them, like the night.You like blues and whites, pastely colours.You are also attracted to birds, as they share your domain.

Birds? What birds? *bwehehehe!*evil smile*

Kiss Me Now!

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


What kind of kiss are you?
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And to put you in the mood...

KISS ME NOW (Fruits of Passion)

Just say the words
And I’ll dance again
I’ll be in all your dreams
So you’ll know what love means
I’ll be everything
If you’re by my side
Keeping me warm and satisfied
Don’t stop
Keep me in your arms
And don’t stop movin’
Give it every chance
Just say the words
Cause I’m always there
Thinkin’ about the love we could share

Oh Kiss me now
Tell me that you love me and show me how
Oh kiss me now
We need somebody we need each other now

Do you
See what I see
Do you think too much
When you’re watching me
Just say the words
Cause I’m always there
Thinkin’ about the love we could share

Oh I know that it’s easy
In a place like this
To miss what they came for
Just one night of bliss
I know that it’s easy
To take a look at my face
Will you be strong
And we can make the world out of space

I’ll be in all your dreams
I’ll show you what love means
I’ll be your everything
If you can make the same
I’ll be in all your dreams
We need somebody we need each other now.

Beauty in Madness

Ironic but beauty does exist in madness. Just take a look at these pictures that were taken in Alabama before Katrina came and unleashed is destructive fury.Beautiful aint they?

Someone's favourite dish!

Halo-Halo: A medley of beans and fruits mixed with
ice, ice cream, and condensed milk

Which Filipino Food Are You?
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*does a small victory dance while chanting*
I am someone's favourite dish!
I am someone's favourite dish!
I am someone's favourite dish!
*ehehehe!*

Minute Ramblings...

I just love free verse cause you dont have to contend with meters, etc! You can give free reign to your thoughts and actually come up with something that can be considered literary. Here's my two-cents contribution to 'modern' literature. =)

Vulnerable I may seem to the world

Introvert is what I am thought of

Childlike I will always be

Charlatans I hate the most

Honesty is what I live by

Otiose admittedly I am at times

Unbroken is how I would like to stay

Judgment I do not deserve

Empathy I fervently request

Respect I have rightfully earned

Responsibilities I have fulfilled

Youthful mind I would preserve

Yielded I have my life to fate

Attached yet to the ground I am still

Naivete of existence I wish to observe

Kindred spirit I am to the world

Eloquence I speak beyond my time

Neither am I here nor there but everywhere

Chiseled I am by life's zephyrs and hurricanes

Halcyon and wisdom of life I still seek

Undaunted I am by the journey's mysterious terrains

Values golden in my heart I have kept

Anchored I am though raging storm swept

Nonpariel am I to a singular concept

Nubile body of mine tempt

Euphoric is my life's precept

Scintillate as I continue with my ascent

Serendipity of life I have learned to accept

Withstanding controversy is my success' ticket

Ultimate fulfillment I await at the end of the circuit

I choose. I chose.

I read this fan fiction that a good friend of mine finally decided to finish a couple of days back, entitled Five Days. To summarize the story, the guy finally realized that the feeling is mutual with regard to the girl who had been pinning for him for like three years. The conflict in the story is that he realizes it too late in the day and as "punishment" for his density, he gets to see the love of his life die before his very eyes. But since hope springs eternal and we're talking about true love here, the author decided to give the guy five days to spend with the girl. So the question that played in our (readers...My friend has a following you see) mind is whether the guy or rather love can change what has happened? If there is truth in the saying that love can move mountains; in the story's case, one that goes tick tock. The end wasn't want I expected, being, admittedly, a sucker for happily ever after ending. But I think it was how it should have ended. Time isn't really something to tamper with after all. For just one itsy bitsy run in its fabric can spell more than a trillion consequences. The girl still dies but the guy learns his lesson. He changed for the better and slightly bitter cause he (assuming here cause she really didn't clearly state if he did move on...As fall in love again) is still somewhat still tied to the past and the memories of their five days. Anyway, how she ended her story reminded of a poem that came to me while I was walking the shores of Bora a few years back, the waves lapping at my feet washing away the footprints that I've left behind. May be its was the way that sea rushed to shore only to be drawn back just as quickly or the people I had for company that morning, or just the whole beauty of the place at that hour...Still not sure why it is this poem that came to me that day but it did and I'd like to share it with you guys...

Return To Me

Like the thousand times

You crashed along the shore

So must I pass through

Life’s many doors

Like the million sands

You shifted through out time

So must I figure out

Life’s many rhymes

Like the eternity

That you have returned to the sea

So must I

Perpetually return to me

At the end of the day, I have only one person to face and answer to--Me. That whatever happens, it is I who makes what my life is. Destiny and Fate may play their hands in my life, but I have the free will to decide when, where and how they will interfere. I have that choice. I can make that choice. I believe that there is really no situation where you have no choice. There is always a choice. And when you say you don't have a choice, you made your choice not to make one.

Life is a choice. So choose to live it!

We Are All Shallow

We live in a SHALLOW world where everything is judged by its cover not its content. A part of me can't entirely blame those who do for the fact that that is what you are confronted with when you interact with others. Its the package that you see not the substance. With people's attention span just as long as a commercial these days, I'd have to say those who have the right package have the scales tipped in their favor.

Yes. Its not wanting what you don't have but wanting what you have that's the key in surviving this superficial world of ours. I just hate it when there you are trying to make lemonades out of the lemons that you were dealt with and people just have to grab a glass and throw the contents in in your face. And though I can wipe my face and dry my clothes and seemingly bring my self back to how I used to look, the damage has been done. I'm already stained, scarred, marred and ruined. It will never be me again. I may look the same but I'm different. I am changed. Pretty much like a pond after a stone has been thrown into it. The ripples will vanish. The waters will again be placid and tranquil. To the eye, the lake is the same lake; unchanged and the still the same. But it is not. It has changed. It is different. For another stone lies at the bottom.

Talk about timing...

God really has a way of showing you the WAY. Just when I thought I was over the incident that prompted my xanga posting (now blogspot), I happen to tune in on Studio 23's Y Speak and they were talking about the topic that dealt a big blow to my "fragile" e.q.--What is beauty?

The most cliche (I would like to think the most true) answer to this question would really have to be that it is in the eye of the beholder. While I agree with such statement whole heartedly, it still doesn't really answer the question fully. It just scratches the surf and doesn't delve deeper into the other question that are appurtenant (?) to the first. I think if one is to ask the question again, it should be restated to what is the beauty standard?

Why that restatement? Well, for starter, while one may rally behind the the cliche answer that it is in the eye of the beholder, the beholder cant deny that he has standards or guidelines that he uses say that the person is beautiful or not. And these standards are in turn influenced by the society in which the person belongs to or lives in. Even time dictates what beauty is. In the Renaissance, they favored the "voluptuous" women. In the 80's, morena's were unheard of in the fashion industry. They were just "too" dark for the lens man's taste. Then came the 90's that saw the rise of the earthy look which propelled the careers of Naomi and Tyra. Now, after the advent of Chinovelas and Korenovelas, its the chinky eyes that's selling like hotcakes.

Beauty changes as the beholder changes.

So yes, the beauty is in the eye of the beholder but the statement shouldn't end there. It should continue on to say that it is in the eye of the beholder, influenced by his temporality; so as just to make things clear!

What's In A Name?

My father always said that a person's name is the sweetest music that he or she (just being gender sensitive here) will ever hear. I have to say that its true. Try it out in restaurants or any place where the other person you are dealing with is wearing a nametag. When you call them by their name and not just random, generic and casual designation (i.e. miss, waiter, mr. sir, etc), the person tends focus more on what you are saying and particularly on you. They maintain eye contact longer and generally looks more attentive.

My first name was derived from my paternal grandmother's name, Alejandra. My dad actually wanted to retain it the way it was, but my mom said it sounded so archaic so they settled on a compromise--Sandra. My middle name, Sheila, (yes folks, legally and techinically, a person's middle name isnt his/her mother's maiden name but is literally the name in between the first and last name. Hence the term middle name. But since tradition has held it to be the maiden name of the mother, it has been accepted as the rule of thumb in most cases. Afterall, its tasking to argue with tradition) happens to my mother's favourite name while she was carrying me. Truth to tell, she actually wanted to name my eldest cousin Sheila Marie but since her brother and my aunt has the say on what to name her, my mother conceded. And so I was welcomed into the world as Sandra Sheila (take note, thats with an "ei" not an "ie"). Rolls of the tongue nicely dont you think?

Now, nicknames I think were invented for the primary reason of brevity. Can you just imagine if you had to call everyone you know by their full name? *mental note* thank goodness I dont know anyone with 7 names! Lolz! Poor Camilla...Charles has several!* My names are actaully pretty short, the first being one syllable while the second having two but you know how we are. We tend to jump on the bandwagon just to be in *guilty*guilty*guilty*. I've collected numerous nicknames over the years, mostly by family and friends, the lastest of which is Andykins, while I've come up with only one--Ila The origin of Ila is easy to trace. It comes from Sheila (obviously) where I dropped the 'She' to arrive at Ila. The dropping came about during our retreat in 3rd highschool when we were asked to come up with nicknames to be used during the said retreat. Feeling tired of having been called Sheila since I can recall, I decided to derive a nickname from the name everyone knew me by. I've stuck by it eversince. I've been known by my "academic" friends (friends I've met in college and law school) as Ila for nearly a decade now. I will probably been known as such in practice as well. Andykins, on the other hand, is a little harder to trace. It started out as Andy, which in turn comes from Sandra. How? Well, you know that the cliche nickname for Sandra is Sandy right? But the nick just puts me ill at ease cause it sounds like the adjective to me so I decided to drop the 'S', leaving me with just Andy. The 'kins' was added by a LDF. I'll be celebrating my first year anniversary of being Andykins next month!

With the backgrounder laid down, let's proceed to the main point...(di pa yun ang main point?!) the meaning of my names! I got this from www.bostonuk.com/names/default.asp . The meanings are a bit Tom Clancy-ish being off center but STILL very much on the target!

Sandra

Protector of mankind : Greek

You are charming, talented and have a very positive attitude to life so it is hardly surprising that you attract success and recognition. Focussed and patient you understand that material rewards are a result of discipline. Being so creative and with a need for self-expression you may be drawn towards the arts, travel is also likely to be important. A loyal friend, you are a person who must be allowed freedom and independence.

Sheila

Lily of heaven : Latin

You are fairminded, wise and peaceloving and are always willing to help others. Your mental capabilities and creativity are well marked with wonderful and original ideas which you need to bring to tangible fruition. Perceptive and understanding of others your positive approach to life and influential nature means that you have leadership qualities. There is great potential for success both financially and spiritually.

Andykins

Honest, dependable and practical you tend to have a fairly conservative but determined approach to life. Your intelligence and wisdom means that you are sought out for guidance and advice. Gifted in communication you are philosophical and intuitive and are usually a traveller both mentally and physically. People respect you for your patience, discretion and integrity.

Ila

From the island : French

You are idealistic and intelligent and very much an all or nothing person.Tending to experience constant change in life security is found in your real and abiding values. With great organisational ability, industry and creative prowess you love to build tangible results and are especially gifted at transforming lost causes. Your intelligence is marked with keen perception and analytical ability. A secure home life and relationship are important for you.

I Don't Wanna Be

I heard this song last night before I went off to bed. Ive been meaning to find it on the net but I keep on forgetting to do so but since it was (is, alternating with Ms. Independent, my current my beat) my LSS, I was finally able to find the lyrics for this song. Pay close attention to the words. They hold so much truism in this multilayered worlds of ours.

I Don't Wanna Be Lyrics
Artist(Band):Gavin DeGraw

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
If you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
The crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay and stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I DONT WANT TO BE...
I DONT WANT TO BE...
I DONT WANT TO BE.... ANYTHING OTHER THAN...

Will try and search for the video of this song. I hope they have it at hotcodez of musicvideocodes.

Ke Swerte!

I was such a deliquent student yesterday.

I LAXED all weekend. I went and had a slumber party (will blog about this in another post) at a friend's place, borrowed another friend's copy of the The Devil Wears Prada (will blog about this when I'm finished reading, which I think will be in another couple of weeks since one of my Prof is determined to drown me and my classmates in readings) and lastly, even went out shopping (will blog about this in another post) all because I was lulled into thinking that I had only one subject to study for since there wasnt any sms that we had a new outline in the other subject that I had for Monday. But as luck (apparently none of it) would have it, an sms came in late Sunday night announcing that the outline for my second subject was released late Saturday afternoon and readings would only be available on Monday. MONDAY! The day of the class itself!!! *does rainbow eyes* hmpf!* How very INconsiderate of the Prof right! Its like he was never a student who had to line up and WAIT for the voluminous copies to be churned out by the photocopiers! *sigh*ugh* Thank God that a classmate was resourceful enough to look up the cases in our old case book for Consti II. There were about 9 or so out of the first 14 of about 91 cases (and mind you thats just for the 10 sections on Art. III!)*drowning**drowning**drowning**drowning*choke*choke* With the odds evened out a little, I went back to laxing...I picked up the phone, dialed Avi's number and chatted until 2 am.

Come Monday morning, I took down for my shelf the thick Consti II book and begun browsing for the cases for my 3pm class, sitting in front of the computer, logged on to the net. Well, I did say that I was SUCH a deliquent student at start right? Tamadaitis was still in my blood so I just managed to find the cases but NOT read them. Then my phone beeps with an incoming SMS. As I was unlocking the keypad, I was wishing that it was from the text chain announcing that we wouldnt have Poli. The message openned and it was indeed from the text chain, only that it announced that there were 7 case digests available at the lib photocopy for us. Okay, so I'm saved...almost!

I arrived at school around 3pm ( e sa delinquente nga ako kahapon di ba!), went straight to the photocopiers, got my copy of the 7 digests and proceeded to the electronics section to go online (again). I reasoned that it would be mentally impossible for me to cram all seven cases in just under 30 mins so I'd just fcuked it and decided to cut; the figure 60 looming big in my mind. It was a choice between that and having to stand up in front of 42 (43 including the prof) people and say, "Sir, Im sorry, I wasnt able to read that". I've got pride, that, at that moment, I didnt feel like swallowing, so I went with the 60.

Since I was already such a deliquent, I wasted around 40 minutes of the hour I gained by trying to create a new shoutbox and a video playlist for the my beat section of my blog. The last 20 mins was spent cramming for Civ since we were starting a new round I just might make it to the cut.What a good fortune it was that I slipped into class just about the time they were finishing their opening prayer where everybody was standing up and turning to prepare to sit down. I blended right in! Lady luck was surely smiling down at me yesterday cause instead of cutting our classcards right after the roll, the prof just set it aside and began his lecture! And when I asked if I was called for recitation in the previous class, I was told that I wasnt. Imagine that!

Kapag sineswerte ka nga naman!

The Tarot In Me

I saw this quiz at Smung's page and decided to take it. Here is the result. I must say that its quite accurate for the literal translation of my full name is "blind defender of mankind". Gives you the image of the blindfolded lady of justice holding the scales right? These small things may not make sense when not taken together but when they are, they strongly reinforce the notion in me that I was really meant to be doing what I'm doing today. That I'm where I should be.

You are the Justice card. Justice preserves the harmony of the world. Working with opposite forces, Justice does not seek to criticize or condemn but rather to accept. The idea behind the card justice is that opposite forces are complementary; you could not have good without evil or light without darkness. Justice's position is to make sure that if a thing is out of balance, the weight of its energy is realigned with its opposite force. This card is also a card of humour, for it is in pointing out contrary positions that humour is often found. The attitude that is found in the
humourous person, being able to shift perspective and flow with an instinct, is important in the maintenance of good balance.
Image from The Blue Moon Tarot Deck. http://www.themysticeye.com/pics/bluemoon.htm

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In/Out

Hello yakkers!
Well, I've finally got the hang of CSS/Html/Javascript/Whatyamacallit for editing this blog's template. Not really bad for someone who was just at it for like one and a half days, right? Still needs a little tweaking but its all good for now...SOoooo, I'll be "officially" moving in sometime next week.I dont feel like copying and pasting my blurbs at Xanga at the moment. Im kinda afflicted with Tamaditis this weekend. I really would have really wanted to stay at http://bad_kickass_angel_andykins.xanga.com but I found their "you've gotta be a member to comment" policy a bit stiff, escpecially when I'm a reactor (passive not active...well, JUST, most of the time) kinda person...*hint*hint* Do comment yakkers! Break your silence! *bleh*winkz*

I'll see you next week guys! I got so much to yak about... hehehe!