Only In Dreams
I'm starting to believe that dreams are a conglomeration of all the thoughts you had in the day (or in the week) that you have put in the back of your mind (or just got buried under all the new thoughts you have had), released in a movie-sh fashion when your subconscious takes over all because of the strange, weird dream that I had early this morning.
I dreamt that I was sitting up in bed looking out my window in horror over what used to be our neighbor's house and backyard because an old train model of PNRC (Philippine National Railway Corp.) had just ran over it and was just slowing down to a stop. From the corner of my eyes, I saw this SUV type of vehicle still being pushed up on top of the ruin which thankfully came to a stop just before it hit dividing wall between our house and the neighbor's. My jaw couldn't help but drop for while all of this was happening, our housekeeper, Ate Dory, who was very much oblivious to what was happening over the bakod, just went about her merry way of hanging our laundry on the clothes' line. I wanted to tell her to get out of the way but I couldn't find my voice. In a blink of an I was down below, in the fray of things with my Aunt who just appeared out of thin air. We didn't communicate but I knew that we were searching for my nieces and my brother. She picked up a silver necklace which, again without communicating, we know belonged to my brother. We started to get hysterical because we knew he was in the mishap, but before we reached the crescendo, I woke up.
Dreaming of someone getting into an accident or worse, dying, especially if that someone is related to you is considered by most people, if not all, as a nightmare. However, its worst than a nightmare for me. It's an omen. I don't know if I'm supposed to call it a "gift" when all it brings is sorrow, definitely an antithema of what gifts bring to anyone who receives one, for when I dream of someone dying, someone usually does. It has already happened twice and I certainly don't want it to happen for the third time.
You can most certainly tell that I was more than bothered waking up from my dream this morning. In fact, I had tears in my eyes when I did. Thankfully I had the presence of mind to nit-pick the details and assure myself that it wasn't those dreams and that it was just A dream. What gave off the dream was the PNRC train that ran over our neighbor's house. We don't live anywhere near a traintrack. The nearest one is a 30-minute to an hour's drive. So how can a derailed train end up in my neighbor's lot? Only in dreams! The train is probably a remnant of 2046 (see previous blog) and my 'five-minutes-na-lang-exam-na' discussion with my classmates for PoliRev about the Senate Blue Ribbon Committee investigation on the PNRC rehab contract which the U.P. Law Center bungled up with its recommendation that it be rescinded for being disadvantageous to the Philippine government upon its "finding" that the same didn't pass through bidding when it fact it did as belatedly disclosed by the administration. Most of my professors actually see the Center's bungle as a roundabout way of forcing the government's hand into disclosing the details of the rehab contract with China. Way to go UPLC! Great job!
The obliviousness of Ate Dory to all the ruckus that was happening over the bakod also gave the dream way. I mean how can you not notice a train ramming through your neighbor's house?! You simply cant! Whether you're deaf or blind, one way or the other, you will still notice something as big as a train level your neighbor's house. Only in dreams can those things happen!
I blame the "finding the necklace" scene from Encantadia (yes, kapuso po ako, at di kapamilya, only for the fact that our telly can't seem to pick up Channel 2's vibes) for last night's episode had Anthony (Mark Herras, not sure of the spelling of his last name) finding his necklace among the jewelries kept by Lira (Jennylyn Mercado, not sure the spelling of the first name this time..lolz!). My Aunt and my nieces were "in" the dream because they were among the last people I saw before I went to bed. It's only the SUV that I cant find an explanation for.
Be it as it may, I still told my brother over breakfast to take extra care today. Nothing wrong with being cautious, even if it was only a dream.
I dreamt that I was sitting up in bed looking out my window in horror over what used to be our neighbor's house and backyard because an old train model of PNRC (Philippine National Railway Corp.) had just ran over it and was just slowing down to a stop. From the corner of my eyes, I saw this SUV type of vehicle still being pushed up on top of the ruin which thankfully came to a stop just before it hit dividing wall between our house and the neighbor's. My jaw couldn't help but drop for while all of this was happening, our housekeeper, Ate Dory, who was very much oblivious to what was happening over the bakod, just went about her merry way of hanging our laundry on the clothes' line. I wanted to tell her to get out of the way but I couldn't find my voice. In a blink of an I was down below, in the fray of things with my Aunt who just appeared out of thin air. We didn't communicate but I knew that we were searching for my nieces and my brother. She picked up a silver necklace which, again without communicating, we know belonged to my brother. We started to get hysterical because we knew he was in the mishap, but before we reached the crescendo, I woke up.
Dreaming of someone getting into an accident or worse, dying, especially if that someone is related to you is considered by most people, if not all, as a nightmare. However, its worst than a nightmare for me. It's an omen. I don't know if I'm supposed to call it a "gift" when all it brings is sorrow, definitely an antithema of what gifts bring to anyone who receives one, for when I dream of someone dying, someone usually does. It has already happened twice and I certainly don't want it to happen for the third time.
You can most certainly tell that I was more than bothered waking up from my dream this morning. In fact, I had tears in my eyes when I did. Thankfully I had the presence of mind to nit-pick the details and assure myself that it wasn't those dreams and that it was just A dream. What gave off the dream was the PNRC train that ran over our neighbor's house. We don't live anywhere near a traintrack. The nearest one is a 30-minute to an hour's drive. So how can a derailed train end up in my neighbor's lot? Only in dreams! The train is probably a remnant of 2046 (see previous blog) and my 'five-minutes-na-lang-exam-na' discussion with my classmates for PoliRev about the Senate Blue Ribbon Committee investigation on the PNRC rehab contract which the U.P. Law Center bungled up with its recommendation that it be rescinded for being disadvantageous to the Philippine government upon its "finding" that the same didn't pass through bidding when it fact it did as belatedly disclosed by the administration. Most of my professors actually see the Center's bungle as a roundabout way of forcing the government's hand into disclosing the details of the rehab contract with China. Way to go UPLC! Great job!
The obliviousness of Ate Dory to all the ruckus that was happening over the bakod also gave the dream way. I mean how can you not notice a train ramming through your neighbor's house?! You simply cant! Whether you're deaf or blind, one way or the other, you will still notice something as big as a train level your neighbor's house. Only in dreams can those things happen!
I blame the "finding the necklace" scene from Encantadia (yes, kapuso po ako, at di kapamilya, only for the fact that our telly can't seem to pick up Channel 2's vibes) for last night's episode had Anthony (Mark Herras, not sure of the spelling of his last name) finding his necklace among the jewelries kept by Lira (Jennylyn Mercado, not sure the spelling of the first name this time..lolz!). My Aunt and my nieces were "in" the dream because they were among the last people I saw before I went to bed. It's only the SUV that I cant find an explanation for.
Be it as it may, I still told my brother over breakfast to take extra care today. Nothing wrong with being cautious, even if it was only a dream.
posted by Andykins at 10/20/2005 10:11:00 AM
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